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bye bye grandma...

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 19, 2013, 6:20 PM
My grandma died today.
We were told this possibility few days ago. The cause is thought to be metastasis.

:tears:

I haven't met her since she was bought to a geriatrics center, about 1 year and something ago.

I
don't
realize
that
she
died
yet.

for me, she was long ago gone.

We suffered a bit while dealing with her Alzheimer at home.
She was a kind but "scared" person. She lived in a time our country was poor and corrupt, so her trauma kept on reminding her those unpleasant times.
But she was so warm.

There are many sweet memories I have with her.
the sweetest one is a walk in the park I had with her when I was 3 :
I asked her if the lake was deep and she replied "no!" just to make me feel safe.

Thank you grandma
for raising me with much care and love.

It might not have been the warmest farewell from me to you,

but I sincerely and dearly loved you.

sadhug
:heart:



I'm sorry for late replies, I only seem to take longer now.

I'm okay.

But you know what guys? I love hugs!

Can I.....have a hug?

:blushes: Revamp:heart:

  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: one ok rock - clock strikes
  • Playing: in space
  • Eating: some planets
  • Drinking: stardust
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:iconyumenatsuki:
YumeNatsuki Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Uchuu-sama ;w; <33 I'm sorry that we haven't talked quite for a white and..
I'm so sorry for the loss :iconsupertighthugplz: I'm sure she must've been a very wondeful grandma and even though she's gone, she will live on forever in your heart as long as you remember her. :iconluvluvplz:

Since my grandma lives on the other side of earth and I only have seen her two times, it's not quite the same pain, but I know how it feels to lose a person wich is dear to you  *hugs you more* :iconyuihugplz: :iconslowhugplz: :iconsnugplz:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much for the wonderful words and for the kind hugs!!! :blushes: :heart: :hug: :glomp:

but what is with the uchuu-sama-! D: uchuu is unworthy of any -sama!!
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:iconyumenatsuki:
YumeNatsuki Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Jeez you're very welcome :hug: >u<

Whut, don't say that, look at you art it is all awesome and omg I wanna be like you D': You are an inspiration hero *A*
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Luuxiya Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am late, but I am sorry for your Grandmother and I feel for you (not sure if I am saying the right words in english)

We don't realize it when they leave us, we just learn how to keep going on without them. Do well
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for the kind words! :blushes: :heart: :glomp:
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:iconluuxiya:
Luuxiya Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are welcome :iconstrokeplz:
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InuBaningu Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:hug::huggle::icondragonhug::iconbrohugplz::glomp:

big big hug for you ! :iconluvluvplz:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much--!! :blushes: :heart: :glomp:
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:iconcddmanful:
cddmanful Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconplzhug::iconsweethugplz::iconslowhugplz:  Uchuu, you deserve as many hugs as I can give~~:tears: Revamp Oh, Uchuu, your grandma loved you, and you love your grandma, and that is enough to know....
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
manful :glomp:thank you so much for the kind words...! :blushes::heart:
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Panakko Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconsweethugplz:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug:
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watashiwasakura Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconslowhugplz:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug:
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Nakurai-Haeru Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013  Student Digital Artist
You can have a lot of hugs Rii Q/////////////////////Q It's so sad //glooooooooooooooooooooooooooooompsandpatpat
Take care T////T
If you want anothers hugs I'm here ! \o/
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
R-Rii? :O_o:

thank you so much...! :blushes::heart:
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Nakurai-Haeru Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
It was (how I can explain that xD) the sound of the emotion//SHOT
No really, I wrote something (I forget dfqsjkfqhlf) but I DONT KNOW HOW it's was cut @@' Sorry *die*

I had to think 15 minutes to remember why I wrote this........ OTL Can I die ?//SHOT
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Student General Artist
sound of emotion LOL XDDD
I though that maybe you could have mistaken me for =riingo ? :paranoid:

don't die! uchuu won't allow it! :XD:
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Nakurai-Haeru Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Yeaaah 8D
Riingo ? I'm think no cuz she didn't post anything at this time no ?
Anyways xD 
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Colorful--Melody Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
おばあちゃんっていつも無条件に愛してくれるからいなくなった時は寂しいと思うけど元気出してね ;A;/
死は突然やってくるでもだからこそ、人はお互いの温もりを感じた時、幸せになれる。
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
:blushes::heart:

本当にありがとう!!;___; ♡
私なら大丈夫!お母さんのことがちょっと心配だけど。。。
いつもありがとう〜!!優しいコメントを書いてくれて...!:hug:
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Colorful--Melody Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
どういたしまして。;v; 自分もお母さんの事、心配になります。
お母さんは自分が子供産むまで元気でいて欲しい ><
いいよいいよ >U</ コメントするの楽しいから!
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CsMelody Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student Artist
:glomp:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug:
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Airokat Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:hug:
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug:
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nelfalot Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013
I'm sorry for your loss :hug: I remember how hard it was for me when my gran died, and I hope you'll feel better soon. She sounds like she was a really great grandmother:)
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much...! :blushes::heart: :hug:
she was indeed. :')
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rydi1689 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
aww my dearest uchuu, I'm sorry to hear about your loss :( I felt the same way when my grandma died 3 years ago, she had three sons so the three of them used to take care of her along the year, it was almost our turn to take care of her when she got hospitalized and eventually died. So for me it still feels as though she's just away, living with my other uncles. I had a hard time realizing she was gone too, but I think it's better this way, because you keep feeling her close and it eases the pain a lot. I hope you can come to terms with your own feelings <3 I'm here if you need to talk :glomp: You're very dear to me!
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
rydi...:glomp: thank you so much for the kind words...! :blushes::heart:
I'm okay, better than my mom and uncle...now I need to work out a plan to make her smile more...especially tomorrow, when we'll go to the cemetery...:pray:
The only thing I can't come in terms with is that remembering dear moments with her is painful. Many said "as long as you'll remember her..." but I can't do that now...:cries:

aww you are such a warm person, I think you knew it already but I'll say it 1000x times more! :iconkissmote::heart:
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SonOfPerun Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013
I'm sorry for your loss. My sincerest condolences.
Hey, I know it's been a long time since I spoke to you. It's mostly because I don't know how to talk to you. But...

:iconyuiglompplz::iconasunahugplz::iconyuihugplz::iconslowhugplz::icongivemehugplz::iconarmstrongtighthugplz::iconanimehugplz::iconabububuplz::iconsnugplz::iconk-hugplz::iconletmehugyouplz::iconoldschoolownedplz::iconbrohugplz::iconsupertighthugplz::iconawkwardhugplz::iconhugguhplz::iconspazhugplz::iconhugglesplz::iconpokebrohugplz::iconrubcheeksplz::icondragonhugplz::iconaawplz::iconsweethugplz::iconaawwplz::icontuzkisnogplz::iconiknowthatfeelbroplz::iconcuddleplz::icondeathhugplz::iconhugplz::iconhuggleplz::iconepichugplz:

... I know, it's not enough, but its all I could find. :iconsadnessplz:
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:iconuchuubranko:
uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much for so many hugs...! :blushes::heart:
:hug: :glomp: :tighthug:

Actually, I was the one who didn't reply further because I quite wondered how to write it. :forgiveme: I'm so sorry! :saddummy: Your life experience is clearly tougher than mine, so it was hard to reply with something consistent & clear. I'm still lacking words....:crying:

thank you so much once again, you're too kind! :love: all the hugs are more than enough!! :iconhugguhplz:
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SonOfPerun Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013
You don't have to be sorry. Different people experience different things in a different way, so I guess we really can't have a fight over something like this. I'm really sorry if I said anything to offend you, I feel rather silly right now. What do you say? No hard feelings?
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LuNa-NaLu Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so very sorry for your loss...:iconcheerupplz: And I know exactly how you feel... :icondesucraiplz:

So please don't be sad :icontardgrinnhugplz: <---Here's the hug you requested




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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
hontouni arigatou...! :blushes::heart:
kanashii kedo nantoka ikeru! :happycry:
dakko arigatou:glomp:
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LuNa-NaLu Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
genki dene! kitto nakunatta oba-san mo tengoku kara mimamotteirukarane! :iconlisbethhugplz:

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Calaeren Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist
I am sorry for your loss, I know exactly how you feel. I bet she'll watch you from where she is now. :hug: :iconrubcheeksplz:
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much for the kind words...! :blushes::heart: :hug:
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Calaeren Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist
You're welcome <3 My greatgrandma and my grandfather both died last year so I now exactly how you feel. It'll get better, and I bet your friends will comfort you if you were sad again. :hug:
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Poneezi Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I am so sorry. :hug:
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much...! :blushes::heart: :hug:
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:iconlulu242:
LuLu242 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm sorry for your loss dear :hug:
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much...! :blushes::heart: :hug:
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LuLu242 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
No problem :hug:
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ThaIssing Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry to hear that, I know how it feels to lose a loved one. here is a hug, I wish it could be real. :iconhugguhplz:
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much for the hug...! :blushes::heart: :hug:

I love both internet hugs and real hugssss :iconladummydateplz:
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ThaIssing Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
let me give you some more!! ;A;:iconarmstrongtighthugplz::iconkittysnuggleplz::iconoldschoolownedplz::iconbrohugplz::iconlinghugedplz::iconsupertighthugplz::iconsneakhugplz: and too end it all with love:iconmuahplz:
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Yuuza Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
i'm sorry for your loss, my condolences /hugs
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uchuubranko Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you so much...! :blushes::heart:
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Vinxus Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013   Digital Artist
I'm really sorry you lost your grandma.. I loved mine dearly and was devastated when she passed away and I hadn't seen her in a while as well... I hope you feel better soon :iconslowhugplz:
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