My grandma died today. We were told this possibility few days ago. The cause is thought to be metastasis.
I haven't met her since she was bought to a geriatrics center, about 1 year and something ago.
I don't realize that she died yet.
for me, she was long ago gone.
We suffered a bit while dealing with her Alzheimer at home. She was a kind but "scared" person. She lived in a time our country was poor and corrupt, so her trauma kept on reminding her those unpleasant times. But she was so warm.
There are many sweet memories I have with her. the sweetest one is a walk in the park I had with her when I was 3 : I asked her if the lake was deep and she replied "no!" just to make me feel safe.
Thank you grandma for raising me with much care and love.
It might not have been the warmest farewell from me to you,
but I sincerely and dearly loved you.
I'm sorry for late replies, I only seem to take longer now.
Uchuu-sama ;w; <33 I'm sorry that we haven't talked quite for a white and.. I'm so sorry for the loss I'm sure she must've been a very wondeful grandma and even though she's gone, she will live on forever in your heart as long as you remember her.
Since my grandma lives on the other side of earth and I only have seen her two times, it's not quite the same pain, but I know how it feels to lose a person wich is dear to you *hugs you more*
aww my dearest uchuu, I'm sorry to hear about your loss I felt the same way when my grandma died 3 years ago, she had three sons so the three of them used to take care of her along the year, it was almost our turn to take care of her when she got hospitalized and eventually died. So for me it still feels as though she's just away, living with my other uncles. I had a hard time realizing she was gone too, but I think it's better this way, because you keep feeling her close and it eases the pain a lot. I hope you can come to terms with your own feelings <3 I'm here if you need to talk You're very dear to me!
rydi... thank you so much for the kind words...! I'm okay, better than my mom and uncle...now I need to work out a plan to make her smile more...especially tomorrow, when we'll go to the cemetery... The only thing I can't come in terms with is that remembering dear moments with her is painful. Many said "as long as you'll remember her..." but I can't do that now...
aww you are such a warm person, I think you knew it already but I'll say it 1000x times more!
Actually, I was the one who didn't reply further because I quite wondered how to write it. I'm so sorry! Your life experience is clearly tougher than mine, so it was hard to reply with something consistent & clear. I'm still lacking words....
thank you so much once again, you're too kind! all the hugs are more than enough!!
You don't have to be sorry. Different people experience different things in a different way, so I guess we really can't have a fight over something like this. I'm really sorry if I said anything to offend you, I feel rather silly right now. What do you say? No hard feelings?